You can't make decisions based on fear and the possibility of what might happen.

不要因为恐惧未知的可能而妄下决定。

Perhaps I should stop casting away my time on those things wiht little positive effects on my career development.

I always pray to God to endue me with wisdom and wealth that can guarantee a decent life.

But in the end, I found the results always turned out to be very disappointing.

Maybe I should accept the reality on the ground no matter how impolitic it may seem.

I am disappointed by those results but I am not downhearted.

I believe that those trivial persistence may agglomerate into a great accomplishment that will bring me the strength to tackle with all kinds of challenges.

The only people with whom you should try to get even are those who have helped you.

要说你该跟谁互不相欠的话，那只该是帮助过你的人。

From John E. Southard.

Since I graduated from my high school, my life has been going downwards from the top point.

Maybe the top point was just a lucky chance, and I had disappointed many people who have helped me.

Feeling very regretful, but I never lose the hope that one day I will regain some glorious achievements that will make them happy.

I sincerely hope those who have helped me and those who have taught me can find their happinesses and satisfications in their life and work that they deserve so richly.